I just realized I have 177 readers of this blog. Interesting! That number (177) was my original goal weight a few years ago, May of 2023 to be precise. I’m only 5lbs from that goal as I type this today. I may even be closer because I haven’t weighed myself in the past few days.

I felt obligated to write a post in this long, long journey that sums up the harsh truth: You have to do the work to peel off that fat suit. The physical part is hard, regardless of how you get there. But, the mental part is the hardest. I see a lot of middle age and older women who’ve been losing scads of weight on the GLP-1s. I’m pretty sure if they’ve not done the mental work, they will regain the weight.

For me, it was really uncomfortable, raw even. I had to take a serious look at why I had gained the weight and kept it on so many years. I was obese most of my adult life. I remember the last time I was a size 10 (this is my real goal, not a number), it was 1992 and I had lost a few lbs because I was traveling to Europe and wanted to reconnect with a former lover, an expat living in Windsor, England. I did and I did. Good memories.

What happened from there was a byzantine trip through a very dark place that included a marriage and divorce. The obesity “protected” me from harm, or so I thought.

It didn’t.

Today, as I’ve written before, I’ve totally reclaimed my identity and shored up my resolve to live the life I was meant to live. I’m free from so many harms, it’s almost a miracle. Again, however, it’s not magic or shortcuts. If I hadn’t begun this self-analysis trek in August in 2008 (18 years ago), I would not be here today.

My new passion for creating songs that tell the story of my life will eventually detail some of the trials and tribulations I’ve gone through as I’ve reached this new (old) version of myself.

If you’re still with me, I encourage you to subscribe to my music. If you search my name: Susan Scrupski on any streaming platform, you’ll find my music. (It just occurred to me I don’t think I ever put my name on this blog.) If you want to see me sing and play guitar, you can find me on TikTok. I’ve only been at that about a year, so be kind.

I’m also pretty active on Threads. Would love to hear from you there.

Thank you so much for following my story. I really, really appreciate you.