So, I’ve been at the dieting thing for 10 weeks. I just gained a pound and a half this weekend somehow, but before that I had lost 22 pounds since the end of August. It’s not really great, and I’ve hit a bit of a lull. I know what the problem is, I’m not exercising enough. I have started walking every morning, but it’s really not that far– just around the neighborhood. I listen to a few podcasts then come home and take a shower. On the other hand, I’ve been really faithful to the diet. I don’t fall off and I’ve learned to cook several South Beach recipes that even the kids like.
With the news of the economy worsening by the day, I decided I would try my hand at going back into the single’s market. I’d feel better for some reason if I could go through this financial meltdown with someone special in my life. I so wish I could find someone else who is trying to lose a large amount of weight, too. That would be ideal! But for now, because I really don’t have much of a “real” social life, I’m trying eharmony. I tried eharmony before when I first got divorced. It worked really well, so I’m hopeful something good will happen. Of course, I lost quite a bit of weight when I first divorced, so I felt a lot better about myself. (Yes, of course I gained it all back.)
The “wordle” image at the top of this post is something that is increasingly annoying in all the matches I receive. These are the words that jump off the “match” profiles that come to me. Men simply do not want to date fat women. Period. They make it very clear in their introductory comments they are only interested in __________ (substitute your euphemism for thin) women. It’s a shame, really. I have a lot to offer a single man, despite the fact that I need to lose this weight (which I will alone or in a relationship). If it’s about the sex, that’s ridiculous. Without getting into a lot of personal detail, I consider myself adept in that department. The way I look at it, sex is more or less about orifices anyway. In all the years I’ve been alive- when I was rail thin and when I was overweight– I don’t ever remember losing or gaining weight in any orifice. My brother reads this blog, so I’ll stop here. Rant over.
I imagine it’s the same for men. I was watching “The Tao of Steve” Saturday morning before I got out of bed, and the main character, Steve, basically said the same thing. The dialog went something like this, “You wouldn’t date a fat guy, would you?” He was asking his love interest who honorably replied in the negative.
So there you have it. Discrimination once again levied against the fat population. Ironically, this is a fight I’m not willing to fight because it’s one that I, by default, tacitly endorse with my stated desire to lose weight (presumably to look better, not be healthier).
I’m not sure anyone is reading this blog (besides my brother), but if you’ve had personal experience with this fat-and-single-trying-to-date thing, I’d love to hear it. Thanks.
The fast weight loss has slowed down, but I’m still making progress. I haven’t weighed myself in the past few days, but the last time I did, I was down 20 pounds. Very excited about that. I finally started walking too. I couldn’t make up my mind whether to straighten out my gym membership or to buy a treadmill. With the economic crisis erupting over the past few weeks, I decided it would be a better “investment” to use nature and not cash to start my exercise program.
I enjoy walking in the morning now. I download NPR podcasts on my iphone, and I take a brisk walk around the neighborhood. Sometimes, I don’t want to come home!
My clothes are getting loose, but not loose enough that I can start wearing some of my jeans that are folded neatly on top of my closet shelf. I really look forward to the day I can get into some of my old clothes. I’ve slowed down a little with cooking, but have really radically changed my attitude/behaviors with “bad” foods. I haven’t had any potatoes, white bread (of any kind), pasta, etc. for over a month now. I only drink diet iced tea or water and have not had anything fried at all since I started.
Tomorrow, I’ll try to remember to weight myself and report how it’s going. I’m not sure if I gained any of the twenty back, but I had better check in to see how I’m doing and make adjustments if I see a bad result.
Will try to post tomorrow night. Thanks for reading!